i have a new xanga

www.xanga.com/marthaAdeline

My friend found this poem in "Chicken Soup for the Preteen Soul" and it really made my feel better about my dad being gone....

He’ll stay with you,

As long as the wind blows

He’ll always be in your heart,

He didn’t leave you alone

He has eternal life,

His spirit will always be there

And if the sun shines in the sky,

Or rain should fill the air

Or when a rainbow lights up your day,

                                       Know that he is there.

AQUIRE THE FIRE this weekend i'm so excited, its goin to be so much fun.. we are riding in a tour bus to Richmond tomorrow and its gonna be soooooweeeeeeeeeeet!!!

The boys plan to so something to us this weekend, i'm scared

this weekend is kaylas sweet sixteen and we (as in me meghan D, allie,and ashley) thought that we weren't goin to be here so we went out to eat with her tonight but she had no clue that we were all goin to be there, she just thought it would be me and her, so when she got there everyone was like HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! she was to shocked it was so much fun!!

last night was the worst night, me and a bunch of people went to hang out at our friend daniels house, so we were all jsut hang in out, it was me, Meghan Dauenhauer, Daniel Gwatkins, John henderson, Jon Jenkins, Josiah Gwatkins, Ethan Gwatkins and Malcom idk his last name but any way me and meghan were playin Xbox when out of know where all the guys decided to hog tie me and meghan and then they wraped us in blankets and tied us up even more and then draw Swasticas on our foreheads and gave us hitler mustaches in permanet marker.....

so after they relazied that we were really mad they told us that they would do anything in order for us to not be mad so if u have any suggestions on there punishement feel free to leave a comment.......

Scuba divin was some fun shit, i snorkled with manatees, they look like big elephants that swim it was crazy!!

is it bad to not really think about my dad, idk it just still doesn't seem like hes gone, i hardly even cry anymore its weird, is it wrong to not cry, i feel like i should still be sad like before, i mean yeah i'm sad but idk....